something that i inherited from my father was flying by the seat of my pants. thats a phrase right? the point that im just trying to get across is that my father was and still is spontaneous as hell. just last week, my sister and i were "reminiscing" of the crazy places we used to go with him, the twisted logic he taught us, and how after all - hes still looking for something better out there -- or the next great idea that will make him feel good and possibly rich too.
so im not going to get all depressed and shit and start blogging about how my fathers disappearance in my life has done major things to me. all of those stories are going towards the book ill write someday. i just think it is significant to mention because thats why ive been "hiding" from this blog -- because even though the best writing comes out of frustration or hurt for me, i prefer not to do grieve so publically.
this process is important to share for any one out there who knows me or who will ever know me or whom ever is dealing with maybe the same issues. being "cut off" by your parents hurts, but doing the "cutting off" to your own parent is empowering as it is crushing.
what doesn't kill me makes me stronger and its true more than ever. my confidence has bloomed into something i finally like myself and im just so excited for days that are ahead of me.
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